RT~!

前几天心情不自觉得变得很恶劣~

我是那种容易受人影响的类型~但是在好朋友的支持下还是会坚强起来~

谢谢大家~

以上~

 

而这几天很反常，与大家节前的忙碌相反~我却很闲~

闲到懒~懒到散~干什么都没有劲头~

今天在打球的过程中拼命的折磨自己的身体~在酸痛的感觉中找到种存在的感觉~

节前综合症~还有两天~

顺其自然~迎接我的第25个国庆节~

 

看来如此懒散是因为这个啊~~？！（好像因果关系的没有~）

听着MJ的Human Nature~human nature?~human nature~!

曾经单纯的认为拿别人当朋友，人家自然也会拿你当朋友~

其实每个人都有不想让别人知道的一面~如果知道这一面，还会是朋友么~？我不能确定~

总觉得对别人微笑就能给别人好的印象~但这样往往会被别人忽视自己的存在~

没有个性~没人关心~在别人的谈话中从不以主角出现~即使被错怪也让人感觉没必要道歉~

把自己的一颗心送给别人~被直接摔得稀碎~含着泪水微笑着收集起来~转送别人~再次摔得稀碎......

自己的付出得不到回报，不知道是不是付出的不够多~

虽然我做了我该做的~但是这样真的对么？在这个法则混乱的环境中无法得知~

也许常识就是错误~而混蛋理论才是王道~我都无从而知~

假如我就是太阳~只有有了地球上的沐浴阳光的万物才能验证我的光辉~

而这种没有回复的回复~就如同在黑暗中前行~即使与幸福擦肩而过也未可知~

我讨厌这种黑暗~在这黑暗中~心情在不知不觉中恶劣~！！！！！！！

 

今天在网上转来转去发现一个特别恶心的事~~

太恶心了~~

我居然跟她同一天生日~~~服了~

恶心死我了~！！！！

5点起床~

到达会场~

成绩不佳~

光荣负伤~

就是以上~

主要还是上班~没有什么太出彩的~

这段时间通过节食来达到减肥的目的~原来的计划是一周减五斤~

结果，结果太不令人满意了~五天只少了两斤~而且在一顿饱餐之后体重完全的恢复了~

T_T我这几天挨饿都是为了什么啊~

上周末一顿狂饮后小风一吹感冒头痛~第二天还要到同事家当一天的免费种树劳力~

回家就不行了~好在hp的恢复速度超出想象~伴随着阳光一身的不爽已经跑光啦~

随即又是上班~工作......

这几天又翻出了不少MJ的经典歌曲~现在喜欢的不仅仅是音乐了~ 歌手：Michael Jackson     专辑：BAD

Man In The Mirror Michael Jackson Written by Siedah Garrett and Glen Ballard. I'm gonna make a change, for once im my life It's gonna feel real good, gonna make a diference Gonna make it right... As I, turn up the collar on my favorite winter coat This wind is blowing my mind I see the kids in the streets, with not enought to eat Who am I to be blind? Pretending not to see their needs A summer disregard,a broken bottle top And a one man soul They follow each other on the wind ya' know 'Cause they got nowhere to go That's why I want you to know I'm starting with the man in the mirror I'm asking him to change his ways And no message could have been any clearer If you wanna make the world a better place (If you wanna make the world a better place) Take a look at yourself, and then make a change (Take a look at yourself, and then make a change) (Na na na, na na na, na na, na nah) I've been a victim of a selfish kind of love It's time that I realize That there are some with no home, not a nickel to loan Could it be really me, pretending that they're not alone? A willow deeply scarred, somebody's broken heart And a washed-out dream (Washed-out dream) They follow the pattern of the wind ya' see 'Cause they got no place to be That's why I'm starting with me (Starting with me!) I'm starting with the man in the mirror (Ooh!) I'm asking him to change his ways (Ooh!) And no message could have been any clearer If you wanna make the world a better place (If you wanna make the world a better place) Take a look at yourself, and then make a change (Take a look at yourself, and then make a change) I'm starting with the man in the mirror (Ooh!) I'm asking him to change his ways (Change his ways - ooh!) And no message could have been any clearer If you wanna make the world a better place Take a look at yourself and then make that.. (Take a look at yourself and then make that..) CHANGE! I'm starting with the man in the mirror (Man in the mirror - Oh yeah!) I'm asking him to change his ways (Better change!) No message could have been any clearer (If you wanna make the world a better place) (Take a look at yourself and then make the change) (You gotta get it right, while you got the time) ('Cause when you close your heart) You can't close your... your mind! (Then you close your... mind!) That man, that man, that man, that man With the man in the mirror (Man in the mirror, oh yeah!) That man, that man, that man, I'm asking him to change his ways (Better change!) You know... that man No message could have been any clearer If you wanna make the world a better place (If you wanna make the world a better place) Take a look at yourself and then make the change (Take a look at yourself and then make the change) Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Na na na, na na na, na na, na nah (Ooooh...) Oh no, no no... I'm gonna make a change It's gonna feel real good! Come on! (Change...) Just lift yourself You know You've got to stop it, Yourself! (Yeah! - Make that change!) I've got to make that change, today! Hoo! (Man in the mirror) You got to You got to not let yourself... brother Hoo! (Yeah! - Make that change!) You know - I've got to get that man, that man... (Man in the mirror) You've got to You've got to move! Come on! Come on! You got to... Stand up! Stand up! Stand up! (Yeah! - Make that change) Stand up and lift yourself, now! (Man in the mirror) Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Aaow! (Yeah! - Make that change!) Gonna make that change... come on! You know it! You know it! You know it! You know it... (Change...) Make that change.

作为一个游戏迷很久很久以前当我还是一个小朋友的时候我希望能有一间自己的屋子~有自己的电视~有自己的游戏机~不收别人打扰的玩游戏~

转眼间上了中学~还没有实现愿望3年已经过去了~

在高中的时候我有了SS（Sega Saturn），我觉得我有了想要的全部~很快对这种看法进行了修正~

坚持了3年~我上了大学~这时我有了一台PS（Play Station），无数的游戏将我包围，许多只不过看过5分钟而已~

大学毕业了，我有了份稳定的工作，自己又陆续买了PS2、GBASP、NDS~在短暂的珍视之后就放置于一边~

那种很想要很想要的心情已经不复存在了~

现在我不仅有了一间自己的屋子~自己的电视~自己的游戏机~甚至自己的电脑~但是我仍然不满足~

这只是一个小小的例子~我到底想要什么呢~

在拥有后那种空虚的感觉让人感觉厌恶~对于自己曾经珍视过的东西现在也可以漠然处之~连我自己都觉得有点可怕~

难道这种“幸福”就是在不断占有，不断放弃中才产生的么？

我现在已经不是一个孩子~至少不完全是个孩子~我的欲望也不是那么简单就可以满足~

但是我相信这些愿望都能够实现~但是到那时我拿什么来延续这种幸福呢？

我到底想要什么~？想要什么~？？？？？？？？？？？？？

昨天和同学聊天~说起了一个小故事~

前一段时间他家附近一家搬走了却把家里的猫丢在那里~

开始还回来给它喂食，但是没有多长时间就不去了~

那只猫就在小区里徘徊~

一天电梯大妈将其放到电梯里希望好心人能够收养它~

而我的这个同学就这样做了~

转眼几个月过去了~这只站在显示器旁边冒充印象的猫，这只给打印机擦土的猫，这只向吸尘器投降的猫已经成为他生活重要的一部分~整天拿个手机到处炫耀它的照片，上网查询养猫的各种知识......

在赞许我哥们的同时，bs一下那个弃猫谔谔~

也许大家养宠物的这几年只是自己人生的一小部分，但是对于宠物来说就是它的全部了~在养宠物之前要做好充分的思想准备~

它需要的也许只是一个能够收容它给它温暖的一个地方~

 

不知不觉晃到9月3号去了~

我要说的9月2日是一个结婚的日子~

一天中我认识的居然有两对今天结婚~

我真是疲于应付为数众多的红色罚款单~

争取撑到年底~明年就happy了~

 

PS:现在piggyz和y~都回来了~感觉又想回到了从前那个鸡一嘴鸭一嘴&听客的生活了~

PPS：我是听客~